May 2008

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 31 May 2008 10:28 pm

It starts with something you would like and ends with it being what you crave.

And somewhere in that process, you lose the appreciation of the feeling of just simply liking something.

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 31 May 2008 10:25 pm

For reasons beyond the scope of events in my normal day, today I briefly attended a session and heard a spiritual person speak.

Throughout the entire 60 minutes that I sat, observed, heard and tried to concentrate, there was a constant thought in my mind that would not go away. No matter how good the speaker was, how colorful his language, how poetic his use of words was, instead of focusing on the content, I was too busy focusing on the presentation of it.

As a presenter, specially when the only medium is speech, it is impressive how good these speakers are. And this analysis of that was my distraction throughout. I doubt I am probably the only one however.

It seems my only option to gain some spiritual wisdom is going to involve a search for a speaker who blogs.

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 23 May 2008 09:41 pm

Some time ago, I wrote about forever and my thoughts on the term.

A “bestselling author, entrepreneur and agent of change” whose writings I read regularly, wrote an interesting post about something similar and interesting.

“……In fact, the only thing shorter than ‘never’ is ‘always.’” Very True.

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 21 May 2008 10:27 pm

Its been tough, its been rough and the part that hurts most, is that its been a long time and things haven’t changed. When you keep getting beaten, and nothing goes your way, you really start to lose strength, whatever little of it there may be.

So, in times like these, when something seemingly insignificant does go your way, its amazing how much strength you can get from it. It would be irrelevant, it wouldn’t matter, but right now it does. I am just tired of losing.

Thats where Mr Albert Einstein’s theory of relativity matters. What is relevant, is relative.

Go United! Thank you for winning.

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 21 May 2008 03:47 pm

Is not the trying to accept the situation…

Is not the still struggling to sleep after what has been forever…

Is not the inability to find enough reasons to get out of bed each morning…

Is not feeling exhausted at the constant defeats in small challenges and big battles…

…Its the challenge to stay sane, to do the right thing, and to not change if what you have been was not a bad person.

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 13 May 2008 06:13 pm

Its been a little easier recently, enough factors making it possible. So, I cannot be thankful enough for those.

Yet, every once a while, when you do have a few moments, no matter how many things you do and stay busy, you can’t help but wonder why you still make the bed in the mornings or make sure the spice bottles in the kitchen shelves are well arranged with the labels facing out……

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 11 May 2008 12:49 am


Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin
Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main Maa
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa

Bheed Mein Yun Na Chodo Mujhe
Ghar Laut Ke Bhi Aa Naa Paoon Maa
Bhej Na Itna Door Mujkko Tu
Yaad Bhi Tujhko Aa Naa Paoon Maa
Kya Itna Bura Hoon Main Maa
Kya Itna Bura Meri Maa

Jab Bhi Kabhi Papa Mujhe
Jo Zor Se Jhoola Jhulate Hain Maa
Meri Nazar Dhoondhe Tujhe
Sochu Yahi Tu Aa Ke Thaamegi Maa

Unse Main Yeh Kehta Nahin
Par Main Seham Jaata Hoon Maa
Chehre Pe Aana Deta Nahin
Dil Hi Dil Mein Ghabraata Hoon Maa
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata Hai Naa Maa
Tujhe Sab Hai Pata Meri Maa

Main Kabhi Batlata Nahin
Par Andhere Se Darta Hoon Main Maa
Yun To Main,Dikhlata Nahin
Teri Parwaah Karta Hoon Main Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata, Hain Na Maa
Tujhe Sab Hain Pata,,Meri Maa

unorganized thoughtsadmin on 05 May 2008 10:52 pm

A couple of things today made me sit back, take a moment and be disappointed with myself and the world. Particularly with myself.

A person I admire spoke about his frustration at what has been going on in Darfur, the crisis and his efforts and desires to make a difference, or at least create awareness. A lot of smart people, sensible people are trying to do something and still the results are probably nothing to show for.

That is just one of the things that is wrong with the world. There are way too many things, way too much broken and it bothers me. I feel guilty at even thinking about it, because I have done nothing about anything.

And the randomizer on my playlist happened to play this song today, Waiting on the World To Change, by John Mayer. A few parts of it…

we just feel like we don’t have the means
to rise above and beat it

it’s hard to beat the system
when we’re standing at a distance
so we keep waiting
waiting on the world to change

And this is pretty much how I feel all the time

it’s not that we don’t care,
we just know that the fight ain’t fair
so we keep on waiting
waiting on the world to change

Not that I agree with the sentiment. I probably am just finding a reason for my and everybody’s inactions.